I need to vent!
Gah, I don't even know where to start, this is ridiculous!
People seriously need to leave me alone. I'll start this very politely and try my best not to be too offensive. People need to understand this, I was born alone, I've been alone most of my life and seriously I can handle it. I am fine with being single. The way things are going I don't see a man in my future any time soon, just god. Truth be told I don't mind. I don't want to be misunderstood, the thought of being in love and finding my "soulmate" fascinates me, but as fascinating as it I also finding terrifying. Which is why I try to ignore this and push this thoughts to the back of my mind.
Moving on, my virginity, I understand it may be a bit shocking that at 19 I am a virgin when most girls are having sex by 12 but this has been my choice and its something I am happy with. I know a handful of girls that wish they could've waited as long as I have and that look up to me for this.
Now, Guys.. *sighs* you need to get your mind out of the gutter, stop trying to hit on me thinking you'll get in my pants, seriously your chances are slim to none. Stop wasting your time, corny words and pickup lines on me, I am immune to them. Words mean nothing anymore, actions do.
"Roxy, you need to stop being so picky with whom you date." "You want someone perfect".
I've heard this line so many times its gotten old.
I am not looking for perfection because no one is perfect, specially me. Perfection is a word that has a different meaning for every person who uses it. I have a list of qualities I'd like in a guy as well as things I don't like, along with things that catch my eye and some that make me look away. This doesn't mean I will reject every guy that doesn't go by this. I'll reject a guy who I cannot see myself feeling anything for, a guy who has nothing to offer me, obviously the jerk that's just trying to get in my pants and all this sweet talkers that just need a past time. Photography, music and my friends are my way to pass the time I won't die without a man by my side, I have entertainment. I take relationships serious, I can't see myself kissing or cuddling up with someone I am not comfortable with, or someone I don't see a future with. I won't go out of my way to impress a guy when to him I am just another girl, once I date someone I want to know they only have eyes for me and that there's more to our relationship than physical attraction.
"The butterflies thing is a myth"
The whole butterflies thing, I hear a lot of people say its a lie as much as I hear people tell me they've always felt them, in my defense I've felt this way before and when I like a guy they're always there. When I crush on a guy I blush, smile constantly and my stomach does little flips. I want this feeling, all or nothing or at least for now. Maybe one day I'll give in and date someone even without the feeling just because they're amazing and deserve the chance and who knows maybe I'll fall in love and the feeling will appear alone. Still that's doubtful so we'll see.
"Sex is a very important thing in a relationship"
I agree that this might be the case and the way to keep a flame...with your husband, wife, long time partner or that person you love. Still, I've been a virgin for some time now and I really don't see myself giving in easily, but I know the right guy will be willing to wait as long as he has to wait because I am worth waiting for... otherwise he's not the guy for me. I am not selfish about this, I know it takes two to keep a relationship going and that things have to be fair but he has to understand me the same way I'll understand him.
I have faith, and lots of it.
I know finding someone for me won't be easy. I am not the average girl, I know that and I am happy like that. I am very giving, and caring. I go out of my way to make others happy and I know this will be the case with whoever I date which is why I am a little demanding at times. I am careful with my heart because I don't need it broken. I am easy to please, simple things make my day. I am not materialistic, thoughts count more to me. I am helplessly romantic by nature and adventurous by heart. I know some day I will make some boy very happy and until then I won't mind waiting. So please, please, people, let me be.
